nightmares

Second night of nightmares and this time it was about my family.

My dad, my sister under me,and some boy found me in like a Walmart. Then followed me home. 

I had woken up from the store one because security was shopping, passed by me freaking out backing away from them and called in for help. So I was able to leave the store while they were acting out in the store.

So I left my with my dog and drove us around town to find somewhere to hide out. 

I woke up to shake the dream, fell back asleep to find they'd found me at home in my house or like a church center or something, and I had to sneak out and then sneak back in to get my dog, and then sneak outside to find some guy I trusted had her on the back of his motorcycle (??) and was driving away with her. 

Once I knew she was safe, I just sat and hid outside. But I also didn't want to do that. So I snuck back into the house but kept getting seen by my sister who I thought would keep quiet but kept telling everyone she saw me or yelling out to ask me why I was running from them. And I'd be stressed even more, trying to get away yet again. 

I woke up and my body was like slightly convulsing and I was so scared. Terrified. 

And I got a little annoyed at myself because why was I continuing to go back inside. Then I immediately thought "because I didn't want to just be sitting outside and I had no where else to go. I just wanted to sneak in and hide out on a random room inside. 

But there was one time I was sneaking around to find a way inside, and a side door opened. 

But it was Sis King who saw me, clocked me, and didn't miss a beat in pretending like she never did. 

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I forgot to mention that my worst fear is that State Farm has given my dad or my mom my address. 

And she texted me this morning.