over it

I'm over it. 

I am underpaid for the amount of work I do and I am tired of feeling less than for doing what I'm supposed to do.

I'm tired of the shit that is condoned and the shit that is dealt out. 

I'm tired of being unprotected and unappreciated because I don't "produce".

If I don't "produce" and that's how you decide who gets what kind of treatment, attention, help, and pay, fuck it.

If I am not appreciated simply because my work product doesn't directly make you money, I'll just have to find somewhere that doesn't have such short sighted appreciation.

Also-- don't want to go somewhere fucking employee appreciation event that's ran by mean girls who get glitz and glory and no consequences for their actions. 

I'm not gonna make an emotional decision but I am gonna do what's best for me.

I want to pursue my dream. I want to take care of myself.

I am my own safe space and it's my job to maintain boundaries that respect who I am. 

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I am smart. I am capable. I am willing to learn. I am level headed, for the most part.

I am diligent. I am a lot of things that alot of employers who actually care about their company and the wellbeing of their employees would appreciate.

I am worth more than what I am getting.

I deserve more than I am getting.

So I'm gonna go after it, somehow, someway.