what sucks

What sucks the most? I lost CrossFit and I don't think I'll ever get it back.

It took me years to start over only to now have it gone for probably forever because it has heartbreak attached to it. 

And I hate being around my CrossFit friends when they talk gym.

Because I don't have that anymore and it's a reminder of what I'm missing, what I really really miss. 

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My sister also texted me today. And I started journaling because as I'm ignoring her, the CrossFit group text is ablaze with Christmas joy and I have none. 

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I finished my steak and potatoes. It was yummy. 

I'm avoiding texting people today as long as I can. 

I just finished eating and I deleted my last Facebook message to Candice, my last Instagram message to her, and the exchange between me and her girlfriend. 

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