i had a dream about candice

I had a dream about Candice. 

I have a tiny crush on Sarah Caty from bookclub and she is s brunette but more of a smartsy artsy type. Also has glasses. It's a whole thing. 

Yesterday was the most she's ever talked to me. Also, I should note, I think she's straight. 

But she's usually stand offish but she approached me last night with small talk and I matched her energy. It was fun. It was nice. 

And later that night, the babies came out. So I took one and sat beside her when Mia got up. And it was regular until everyone went into the kitchen and it was just me and her. 

And we were talking and playing with the baby. And laughing. And she just sat there, staring at the baby-- I think. I'm pretty sure.

But also, do people just stare at babies like that for what felt like 15 minutes or so. Or could they also be staring at me?

.....I ended up staying late with Mia and her to give Mia a little break. They ordered food, we watched Elf and she was calling us Aunties.

And I was like "ma'am, I feel like you're flirting with me lololol" didn't say that. Juuuuuuuust thought it lol. 

But I came home and when I was in bed, prepping my libido, I was thinking about her. It didn't reeeeeaaally work. But I tried anyway because I do find her attractive and intriguing. 

But it's nothing like it was with Candice. Which came up in passing. 

Apparently Sarah Caty joined the gym I went to after I quit. And Mia is thinking about joining. And she asked if that was the one I went to. And I confirmed the location and said yes. I forgot why I quit... I think I was just sad. 

And she asked if I was working out again and I said no. I'm just taking my time. I'll be back eventually but it's gonna be a minute. 

And she nodded. 

But, masturbating last night. 

I did it. It was lovely. 10/10

Fell asleep. Great. 

I ended up having a dream where Candice and I were in a gym. Like a school gymnasium. We were sitting at the top of the bleachers together as a couple. And I was holding her hand alot and talking with her. I either imagined in the dream that we kissed or we actually did in the dream. But I do vividly remember her letting our fingers intertwine and sit in my lap. It's a nervous habit I have and she let me do it even when we were holding hands. Which-- innocent enough still turned me on to have her hand so close to my "center" as romance novels like to call it lol. 

And we did it a few times. And each time I felt myself get so turned on because if I just moved our hands a few inches up, she'd be touching my pussy. 

And then we rushed to the hospital to check on her brother. And I was holding her hand as we walked and she cried when we made it to him. And I couldn't see a face really but it felt like it was my Uncle Junior. Weird. 

There was a third part of the dream but I cannot remember it. Ah! I got it. 

It was about Sarah Caty but it was a replay of last night sort of. 

We did White Elephant in real life and in the dream. During both, I got a Starbucks gift card. Not something I really wanted but definitely something I'd eventually use. Idk who brought it, but in the dream it ended up being from Sarah Caty. 

How do I know this? Because I got it and showed it off before placing it back in the bag. And everyone said something like "it has a note on it" or "I wish I'd gotten something with my name on it" And I didn't get it. Until I flipped it over and it did have something on it, addressed to me. 

Which was confusing because we randomly chose gifts. But it was something sweet like "merry Christma" but then also something a little flirtatious but I couldn't really make it out in the dream. 

....so that happened. 

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Okay so I'm leaving volunteering. Today was really fun. I was really nervous going in I think everything went well and I had a lot of fun and the guy that is not shy about finding me attractive ask her to come over and it kiss my hand and gave me a thumbs up and told me I looked nice and I was like oh my God and then before he did that there's a guy in there who's a little special and he came up to me and like put his arms up for a hug he's never done that before. Going to make me feel special today. And the class was good it was really good. And I'll be back tomorrow to volunteer some more