candy bowl trauma trend

1.  My mom told us when we were little that my uncle was coming out of jail and driving straight to our town to kill her.
2. Around that same time, we were sitting in church on like a Wednesday and the police call my parents and we had to rush home because the money had broken into our house. And my parents didn't exactly protect us from like the reality of somebody bringing in them not being found and our stuff still being there so they say. So for years like I've been doing a graduate almost sometimes I would be afraid that somebody was living in the Attic because door to the attic was in my room.
3. My mom would fuss at us for picking out dented cans. 
4. When I found out from my mom that my dad was stealing from me, she asked me why I wasn't keeping track of how much I was paying him back.
5. When I was in the 7th grade, I made friends with the older black boy at my table in art class. Everyone thought he was troubled and I use to think they were mislabeling him. One day he got pulled out of class and I later found out it's because he'd had a gun in his backpack.
6. When I was in 7th grade I had my first puppy. I left him at home during vacation with my dad and came back to him being really sick. My parents took him to the vet when I was in school to see what was wrong. They put him down and my mother told me this in passing as she was giving me instructions to clean my room and complaining about how the dog had chewed up my furniture. 
7. When I was in elementary school, my mom surprised us with a dog she was given as a gift for her birthday. I was over the moon in love because she said he was going to be a house dog. She fussed at him all evening and eventually put him outside under the car port while he cried off and on. And she wouldn't let us go out there to love on him. He never came back inside. 
8. My best friend I grew up with was nice enough to set me up with my first boyfriend in 7th grade. We went to different schools but she gave him my number. We used to talk on the phone and text, all the things. After sending fully clothed pictures that got me in trouble, I later found out that my boyfriend was a girl and I had been catfished by her and my own best friend. 
9. My mom let my godmother pass me off as her baby so her baby daddy would pay her money for his actual baby and me, not his baby. I met him when they got back together years later. It wasn't until recently that I realized how fucked up that was when my friend asked me if I thought my mother was getting a cut because why would she let her do that.... I definitely think she was getting a cut now.
10. I was a daddy's girl growing up. We went everywhere together. Later on in life, my mom basically told me my dad was using me to flirt with women. That's why I would go on errand with him.
11. My mom never let us order cheeseburgers as kids because "we had cheese at home". 
12. My mom never let us eat in her car as kids. To this day, I remember being upset about it because by the time we got home my fries would be gross and cold and never reheat right. I still have an aversion to ordering fries if I can't eat them immediately. And I typically eat all of my fries first so they don't get cold.
13. My sister used to complain about me saving snacks and desserts for later so much my mom used to either force me to eat it all or throw it away.
14. My mom would not let us cry or be pouty in public. She used to threaten us if we expressed any negative emotion in the slightest way, even if she's just finished pinching us, popping us, or yelling at us. 
15. I argued with my sister as kids because she was hogging the microwave when I was using it. After arguing back and forth about it, I went and told my dad and he choked her up against the microwave because she was talking back. We were kids.
16. I was forced to be smart. I was not allowed to bring home anything under an A.
17. My mom texted me at 3 o'clock in the morning to clean my room because CPS was coming over because of child abuse. I immediately thought CPS was coming to get me or one of my sisters. We're all over 18.
18. When they did come at like 4 am, they told me my sister's baby was in the hospital and had an old brain bleed due to shaken baby syndrome and two broken femurs. 
19. During my interview, I asked to be questioned separately because of my own childhood trauma. I immediately felt guilty and nervous about making myself comfortable enough to tell the truth.
20. I've had 3 different therapists treating me at once-- my long-term therapist for CBT, one for EMDR, and a psychiatrist for formal diagnosis and medication. 
21. I told an old therapist I didn't know my dad, out of context. So she was confused when I said he lived with us because she thought I never met him. I then had to explain that "yes, I grew up with him my entire life but no, I don't know him personally"
22. I'm a very happy person so when I tell people I had a traumatic childhood, I then have to relive said trauma to prove why is was traumatic because people assume I'm lying.
23. We used to get yelled at if the mop bucket stayed out too long
24. We would get whoppings for playing in church because it was sacred and we should know better. We were children staying late after church, unattended, while you worked. We just wanted to play. 
25. I started pulling my eyelashes out in junior high, grinded my teeth in highschool and college, and started pulling my hair out post-college.
26. When my college career ended early because of a due date I didn't know I had, my mom did not encourage me to figure it out, find another school, or sit out a year. She just told me to get a job doing something.
27. I always got shit for "sounding white", listening to "white music", and having "weird" interests.