well

I woke up at 1 am and was irritated immediately. 

I went to sleep early to avoid feeling my feelings and thinking about this shitty apartment situation. 

So I finally got access to the portal granted literally at midnight. So I signed up and signed in. Then I started investigating my rights as a Tenant and that made me feel better. The law is very clear and concise, so as long as I follow it to the letter, I'll be within my rights to seek legal representation, from justice of the peace to reaching out to my friends and coworkers for help. 

And then I went to go pee. 

I was still seething about the apartment, washed my hands, looked in the mirror and my eyes are swollen. Not like crying and puffy swollen.

Crusty swollen. Like one is sore and almost shut. I literally gasped at my reflection. And then I tried cleaning it up. And my nose had been stopped up, but I didn't think twice about it. I just thought maybe I'm congested. I don't know. 

But then I googled to see if it could be an allergic reaction to the cigarette smoke. I've never lived anywhere where smoking was an issue indoors and ventilation in my apartment is poor because none of the windows seem to open. And I'm a 90s baby. So I lived more of my life with clean air because smoking indoors was outlawed in public places. And I've never lived anywhere where people smoked inside their apartment. 

And I may have an allergy to smoke smell. 

~

And since I'm awake, I've submitted two service requests. One for cameras and one for getting my Rent Adjusted correctly for next month since the dumb bitch at the front desk doesn't comprehend that my first month's adjustment should go against my first month's prorated rent. 

And I just don't like myself right now.

I don't like this version of me. I'm flailing, I feel like I can't trust my judgement, sometimes I feel severely dysregulated, I feel ill-equipped and unprepared, I'm extremely self conscious, I feel like a heartless bitch, I feel out of sorts and helpless, I feel like nothing I do matters sometimes, I feel like my efforts don't matter, I feel like maybe I deserve to be treated poorly, i feel like i dint know how to do life, I feel like maybe I'm too nice and forgiving, I feel like maybe i am the villain, I feel like I just can't do life right, I feel weak, I feel down and out, I feel like a fraud, I feel like a walking target.

I feel like everything I do is in vain. I feel like I can't trust my judgement, I feel stupid and I feel like I'm too much of a goody two shoes. I feel like I can't do right by myself. I feel shitty for advocating for myself. I feel like an idiot, I feel unprepared and unprotected, I feel trapped, I feel stupid, I feel like I just keep trading shit for shit, I feel like I'm never gonna truly know peace. I feel like I'm never gonna actually be happy. I feel like I'm trapped in my head. 

I feel like everything is my fault. I made these decisions, I trusted these untrustworthy people. I feel like I didn't choose right from the start and now I'm just dumb and delusional because I should have known better. 

I feel like I can't trust myself. I'm flailing and the apartment that's supposed to be my safe space is just another cage I'm putting myself in, but this one has my name on it and I'm alone. 

I haven't worked out in months, I miss my gym friends but it's also triggering to hear gym talk, I haven't been eating the way I'd like, my appetite is poor, my motivation is barely there, my routine is still inadequate, I feel like I keep hitting walls no matter what I do, I have never been so upset. 

~

Voice to text on my way to work my voice is just shy basically cuz I'm tired. I am making a decision right now about the issue is that bothers me the most about a lot of stuff in my life at this point 

I do not want to live in at least life

About that I mean well at least at least things aren't as bad as they could be 

Well at least at least you have a place to say that's not with your famil

Well at least at least you'll have the first apartment experience under your belt 

Well at least you don't have any physical harm coming to you 

Well at least Intercity statement here about circumstances that I don't feel good about but make me feel guilty about making them a big deal because they are a big deal. 

All my life I've lived in it at least life. That is my issue. That is what I don't want. That is a problem I'm running into the most right now. 

I don't have a gym and I feel disregulated. Well at least a night around candice. I don't give a f*** about that. 

This is a whole bunch of that. There's a whole bunch of that and it's frustrating and it's getting on my last f****** nerves and it's the reason I keep making emotional decisions cuz I keep thinking well I can deal with this s*** in circumstance because at least this other one won't this won't be as bad as the other one. They still both f****** suck 

I am determined to not live in at least life. And I understand that there I can have everything that I want and there are certain things that I will have to bend and be accepting of and compromising all the stuff and I'm fine with that. But the s*** that is a f****** deal breaker for me will never be accepted as okay because at least.

To this s***** apartment because that's what it is. I guess we'll call this the at least apartment. I don't want to smell like cigarette smoke. Now that I've read up on the law and I know they can't retaliate or kick me out we're doing anything to make them and preach it their own contract I feel a little bit better. But I will be following the lease to the letter because the moment they break their end of the deal formally filing suit. suit legally.

~

Well. 

I titled this entry before I knew how today was going to go. And I know I said things this morning but I was just saying them just to say them. Because it made me feel better to say it out loud be true. I didn't mean like the whole I'm not going to settle for not enough but I didn't know that today was going to play out the way it did. 

I go in I still kind of swollen just upset at the world and not really know what to do I hadn't eaten since the breakfast yesterday at like 2:00 in the afternoon. I still only have had a kiwi I need to get food tonight. 

Does all stressed out last night stressed out this morning nervous didn't know what to do how things were going to go they were going to railroad me I didn't know how to stick up for myself 

So I got to work and I'm upset and I didn't know what to do cuz I was like I made this stupid f****** decision now it's not fault and I should have done any of this and I don't I'm stuck. And I don't know if I read it last night because I have how upset I was but my other thought was like in my mom where there to help me things will be a lot easier cuz I had somebody too support me during this process like and be there for me. Every step of the way. But that's not how things worked out and I'm in the conditions that I am in so that couldn't be the thing that happened. 

Last night it was just cuz I was upset laundry has been there for me and she's been supported me as much as she reasonably can and I am very grateful I was just mad and upset cuz I thought I made it emotional decision and I know I did. 

But that stopped the moment I'm watching that apartment and it was literally unlivable on that staying there. 

So I'm at a desk sad and defeated. And then under comes in after Tatum and like Andrea comes in and kind of get settling and go come to the kitchen. And she's talking about me about the apartment and trying to fill me out see how things are cuz she doesn't know just how bad they are she just knows I might have to succumb to something because of the price rage and I was like I understand that but now the things that are in that apartment that's unreasonable. I shouldn't have to live in a set part environment just because it's cheaper it still should be habitable. 

So how was sad and working getting stuff done and then Andrea came over and was like hey you're going to talk to him today do you want me to come with me and it made me happy immediately. But I looked at her and I was like you don't have to do that and I'm pretty sure and figure it out. And she said well I know I don't have to but I don't want to so I'm going to go with you when you go over there let's call and make arrangements and we'll head over there we'll just go we'll see. 

And so I was getting nervous cuz it was getting close to closing which actually might have worked in our favor and she may have been thinking that too but hadn't said that but also we had a job to do so so that we can we 

So we go over there around 2:00 and maybe it was three I don't know no it was like 2:30 or something I don't know. we had over there she drives cuz there's s*** it all in my car cuz I was expecting to be able to move in. We pull up we get out Celesta sitting at the front desk and her attitude is different. We ask for the manager she says she's not in like she went to lunch and she hardly ever goes to lunch but she went today a couple minutes ago and should be back in like 30 minutes if you want to come back. So I'm asking the questions I was asking her the other day?. So I was going to leave it at that party because I have Andrea there. So she's like scattering running an email to send it let her know like yeah she'll be here like it'll be like yeah she'll be here and get things situated so like okay she's like if you want to wait you can wait and like she'll be here and or you can come back if you want to. And Andrea I looked at her and I was like yeah I'll come back I'll do that. And Andrea looked back at Celeste and was like about this apartment she looks like. Just like about this apartment it's not ready for her to move into do you all know have other units available yes we do have other units available and she was celeste's attitude Stevie Wonder. Andrea called it the Stevie wonder. But she was different. I told Andrea her attitude was very different and she had different answers from you for you than she did for me 

So we left and I'm still kind of pissy but I'm just like let's go to the apartment I'm looking around. She walked in there and I was like it hits you in the door and she's like oh no so I started putting stuff out and she's like no you are not staying here. Even when we were driving over and like getting to the apartment unit she was like have you looked at the crime rate to see what that is over here? 

So she's like no no no no you're not staying here no you were breaking that lease. She like do you really want to stay in these conditions? And I was like not really but I also don't want to lose my money so they can put me in a different unit that'd be great or they can fix it that'd be great. The right to terminate for different reason so I know right then I'm okay with dealing with that if I have to but I don't want to I would like to get my money back but I didn't think I had a shot at getting my money back so I went through the lease again we got back to the office and started digging through stuff. Meanwhile she's on the computer looking at a different departments? Just like. You don't need to stay there why do you want to stay there do you really want to stay there? 

Started talking with her and Tatum I was like I get it I know I know I'm going to rise yada. But either she's going to I just like you need to get your money back you need to turn back that leaves and get your money back tell her money back. Because of all of this and I just turn in my lease without like guaranteed that I'm going to be fine and I get my money back. Cuz I knew they're going to try to f****** push me around. 

So are you talking with her and Tatum we all decided on three different things well I decided like you either move or you get an attorney and you move that was Andrea's decision. I'm doing voice to text so all the stuff is still dry gold because it's trying to listen to me and my car as well all these things. 

I was like I'm going to go over there and get my best I forgot what I called it but basically a kick ass eat s*** speech and be like hear your options b**** either you put me in different unit are you confirmed that you're going to fix these issues and then they are messing up my ability to move in because I added that one in because of what the Lee says and I was like I need her to put that word in there specifically so I can turn it at least. Or I'm going to seek illegal assistance which I was going to leave that. Not illegal. I was going to seek legal assistance. And I knew that was always on the table but I was like my last shot like I didn't want to have to do that if I didn't have t. For help and I wasn't raised that way so I wasn't going to do that because I'm not used to it. 

Jake and I had to fix it. Okay I'm being disrespected and I'm trying to announce it in all these things I felt like this was my mistake and I had to fix it and it was my responsibility it was all on me because I did this. 

I had to do to take care of myself cuz that's all I know how to do. 

So I sat down at that I was like where's the manager is she here with her office and she was immediately like we can go over so she walked over she's like yeah we can fix that we can fix that we can fix that we can fix that yeah maintenance man look at this let me take pictures I can get rid of that that's fine too I can fix that. Sounds like you can't get rid of that smell whatever you do she's like we can get rid of smoke now I was like well she told me it was coming to vent she was like well who told you that celeste. And I was like no because it's clean and she'll go out the carpet it's new well how new is it was you buy it. I'll have to look at the receipt don't play with me answer my question and don't bring it up if you don't know what you're talking about. Which I feel a little big and bad even though I know like I'm still like waiting on Chris to make a final say. 

Like arguing with her back and forth like I hear you I'm not staying here I can't move into an apartment in this condition I'm not staying here you going to put me somewhere else. So we go back to her office she's talking to the maintenance man and she's like well like I can get things taken care of and get everything started and you'll be fine no I won't. So I told her the amount of time I keep saying. The amount of time I'm saying it is tickling me because people say the word period in just ingest as in a joke but I keep saying it and it's funny right now give me the contacts. Anyway so she's like yeah and like I can get all that fix I'm going to email confirmation that things are going to be taken care of and to confirm that I'm not able to move into the apartment cuz it does not make ready I'm not moving again. 

So she was like well yeah no like I can't do like you can hear me that she's a paper cuz I don't know why we putting down with me you made a list you know what it is you took pictures and you let the maintenance man now. So you know we need to fix there are other things but those are major issues they need to be fixed immediately. She's like well if you sign in hand me your list I can use that no. She's like well if you sign to hand me your list I can use that like I can use that cuz I don't know what we'll be having to fix like you have to tell me no I'm not giving you the sheet of paper until I am moved and I do a full inspection the things I am pointing out to you and things I initially saw on the surface level of issues. 

So we're going back and forth about this paper I'm not giving her I'll take it to my f****** grade b**** before I headed over to you. So we walk back to which we're walking back in the f****** heat of Texas it's just like well you can drive or you can f****** walk cuz you're not getting my f****** car it's full of s*** cuz I can't move into my apartment. 

I keep denying her stuff and I keep holding to my gun because I'm like I got to stick to these f****** three I'm going to f*** myself for sure. 

So we going to turn off as they were sitting down and she's like well cuz she's always like well I'll send you an email like except we're going to work phone I'm looking at it she's like well I think I'm leaving here today until you send me an email with that word in it today. 

She didn't get my emails from yesterday cuz I misspelled her name but also explain all that to her and then I forward them over to her so I can make sure they had the time stamp on them. So then we're going back and forth cuz the email she sent me is like we're going to work on these things no b**** I told you specifically I need wording saying you understand that these days are inhibiting my ability to move into this apartment I cannot move in the least was effective yesterday and not even I'm not able to move in the way I'm supposed to and she's like well like I can't do that like I can't put any word in that I can't put you in an email that I'm going to be putting you in a different units I don't know what's going to happen I need you to say you're going to put me in a different unit I need you to tell me that you're going to look into other options while we wait on these things to be fixed because I can't move into my apartment. So I stick to my guns because I know that I need that very much to be exact in order to terminate this lease. So after all that said and done we're going back and forth back and forth she is refusing to give me what I need in order to do what I need to do that she knows why and I know she knows why so we're going toe-toe back and forth over and over and over again for about a good 5 minutes 

And she is combative I'm getting attitude she got an attitude with my b**** we can both be mad I don't care. Cuz at that point like I need to go piss you off and I'm going to be pissed off in the department we can be pissed off together or you going to do the f*** I asked you to do. Cuz now I'm like Andrea also feels the same way I do and I thought it was just me and my head overreacting and I was like I got ground for something we need to figure out what. 

So all that's said and done we're going to toe to toe and I'm like I'm not leaving today until I get what I need and then I can go she's like well I'm in the middle of something and I need to finish this in order for me to help you so if you want to wait outside you can do that. So I look her dad in the face for a good 30 seconds so put down my jacket and I put down my cup that has my company logo on it because I work for attorney. I'm like I want you to f****** sweat and no you got an issue in your hands before I called an issues. 

Because I knew from the job they were going to be difficult so the earlier home I had to go back into the leasing office I made sure to bring my cup because I knew it had the local on there and I was like a b**** I want you to f****** know I'm not playing around. Oh that's funny too because when I walked in today and Celeste wasn't there when I went back and Aaron was just like what happened did I do something yes b**** you f***** me over. 

So I almost sat down and I waited and I was like you know what let me call Andrea so I need them to think I'm on the phone with somebody important while she in there twidding her mother f****** thumbs. So I put my stuff down I keep my purse and my keys and my phone and I head outside and I walk like a good day it's not that far but I walk a good distance before I know they can't hear me so I'm walking to tennis court outside the tennis court back and forth to both calm down and also talk it all out to make sure I'm doing the right thing and I'm going to be okay. And I'm just like you're fine you need to get out of there and we're going to do this stuff and like I don't know all the stuff and she talking to me she's talking me through it and she's being supportive and then she's like you know what do you want to reach out and see if Mr Sir is available. And I was like I've been avoiding this because I thought I could do it myself and I was certain I was going to take care of it and it was going to be fine and everything is going to go the way it was supposed to. But I also knew where I was in that moment and I was like b***** f****** need help and you need to take it. So I said yes please can you reach out to him. At some point I am pretty sure I'm going to cry but we'll get back to that in a minute. 

So I am I told her yes please reach out to him and she was like okay I'm going to see if he's busy and she was like he's being silly but he said he's going to reach out like he just call him. And I said okay. 

And I got flustered I'm still walking back and forth and I'm trying to figure out which number is he is cuz the for some reason I'm have two numbers saved and so I'm sure one of them is like to the office or something so I was like which one do I call. I will make our old text and then I called from there 

And I answer the answer is like hello and I was like hi I was really defeated at that point. And I thought I was going to cry but I there are several moments today where I look at Andreas like if I could cry I just don't have any tears left because I am worth slap the f*** out. 

So he's like tell me what's happening and I get to rattling because it is what I know how to do and I'm going.. and I'm going 90 miles an hour 90 miles an hour with my mouth just going going going going going explaining everything I can I think to explain over the phone from start to finish. And he stops he asked some questions and I can hear you sorry what is it and we're going back and forth and he's like and what are you looking for in like some more information. I think I know my rights I looked at I was like I know that I can do this if this happens and I know this if this happens cuz I know this is like yes yes. 

So I started going into how the girl was talking to me and how we were going to tell her I refuse to give her that paper and all these things he's like yes you did right and then I finished my little blabber cuz I had to worry about me and I was talking so fast I haven't talked that fast in so long. And he was like okay well first do you want to position here for like work and stuff and first when he started talking I was like what is he talking about nothing he is offering me a job at the law firm? 

And I was like I did and now it's concerned too I was like explaining stuff to him as I wait you already know this because that's what you do but like I know that too and like I know that that's going to be like okay if I have to use that. And I just really hope I get my money back at this point cuz he did help a lot and I'm hoping I could do that. Okay but back to the story 

Okay so he was like if you want a job here you can you can work over here his toe is very even cuz he can tell him upset if he's staying even kilter he's getting the information he's okay now who's the leasing company do you know who the landlord is and I was like I know who the manager is I know the landlord should be but their own bad BH I don't know. So he was like send me your lease so I can look at it and I forward it over to you if they can have it. And it was like whatever emails you sent her do you have her email and I was like yeah send her some emails and I explain that situation he was like good for those over and I was like I'll forward you that too so you can have her email he's like okay that's good. So he's also reading through those emails. So as I hope I explained everything in the way I was supposed to and I really tried to like yes you did like it's in here. So then he goes through of like I can hear him like thinking and figure out all the stuff and I'm talking he's answering questions and he's like okay so what do you want. 

So I told her I can get moved into a different unit I would like that to happen. If I can't get into different unit I need the language I need in order to terminate my lease saying that they are preventing me from moving in giving the situation in this apartment it's not fit for living. And cuz at some point also rattle off a bunch of that stuff too so he can know what the situation was and how the IR it was in a sense. So I told him I like my money back if possible because I don't want to lose my money. I was like I would like to terminate the least by don't want to lose my money. And I was so upset I was like I got to have spent 12 Grand and I was like wait no I spent 1200. That's like I don't want to lose that if I don't have to and that's really the only thing that's keeping me here right now sounds like I know like I need to move out and there's a whole other story but like I just need to something I don't want to lose stuff in the process of standing up for myself 

So he's like okay he's asking questions and he's like hey did you get any pictures I was like no but she did I didn't do like a official walkthrough so I didn't take that picture he's like you need to get pictures can you go back over there I was like yep I'm headed there right now so we're talking he's like yeah take pictures and then once you're finished she can send those to me and I'll get things like do you want me to send an email do you want me to give me options of stuff he could do and I was like yes please can you send me an email push you off because somebody else makes those decisions and she doesn't want to be talking to them but she doesn't have to so I'm sure if I send an email she'll be promptly able to help you I think that'll be a good answer okay yes please so he does that. And then we I'm on the phone with him still and I'm walking to the apartment I'm like I'm really really I was like thank you so much and I just really just hate fighting this way like I was much rather physically fight somebody then do this. And he was laughing and I was like but you didn't hear that that's just conjecture and he was like correct yes. And I was like I'll explain things to him and I was just talking and I really at this point don't know I was walking over there and he was like okay get the pictures. And so I get off the phone with him he's like I'm going to start looking at this and working I'll send her an email and I'll put you on and I said okay. So I started taking pictures my phone starts freezing up I'm freaking out I'll text it Andrea to tell her thank you while I get stuff situated and like I got a shot I'm going to figure it out. And I get pictures taken get the email sent over to him and I really still don't know they went through cuz they were taking a long time cuz of the pictures with all called him back and I was like they're trickling it in because there's so many pictures on the email but I sent them over to you he's like okay good I'll take a look at those things and I'll get back with you I was like okay can I leave or should I stay and wait and he's like no you can leave it'll be fine so you going to be leaving are you going to talk to your attorney and I was like okay. 

So I walked in the apartment office. And this is the part that fills my heart with joy no matter what happens. I walked in there and I looked around the corner while to grab my stuff and she had somebody in her office and I'm learning it was a maintenance girl. But so I didn't want to bother her because I'm like you're busy b**** remember. So I'll walk to Aaron and there's also people in the office too and I go up to her well I don't go up to her but I like him passing I look at her while I grab myself in like hey will you let her know that I'm going to head out but my attorney's going to reach out of my behalf and I'll get with him on getting things. 

It was even funnier too with the situation is that at some point during all of this I called Andrea back to update her and I was like hey I'm going to go in the office do you want to listen if she was like oh I said that and then I got back on the phone and I was like oh my God I brought me so much joy you know how long I've been waiting to tell somebody. 

Do you know how long I've been waiting to tell somebody that my entire life? And she's already laughing and I'm giggling and I'm getting in my car so like at this point Chris said he's going to handle it and I feel a lot better about things. And I did ask him oh that's what I asked him on my way over there I was like can you be honest like reasonably do I have a shot and he was like yes you have a shot we're going to work on it and I said okay and he was like just send me the stuff today well good things taken care of. And he also explained something I don't remember yet he'll come back to me though it's going back to me and pieces because it all it's just fresh and I'm excited and. 

But just tell her that and you can leave and I was like okay thank you so much you're welcome. And some other phone Andre when I walk into there and I tell her that and I walk out and I'm so happy. And then I get in my car to drop my car up I'm talking to her and then the manager comes out and she's just dance around my car and she comes through my window biggest smile on her face hey I have two apartments you can look at oh do you.

~

Okay. I had to stop being gas and do stuff I had to call Brittany and leave her voicemail so she knew the exciting tournaments for today turn of events not tournaments. 

I didn't wake up this morning and I was immediately like happy it was very confusing because I was like no b**** we should not be f****** happy s*** is going bad we must be sad and upset we have to use that to our advantage. And there was a small apartment that was like okay well God you happy is there a reason I was very conflicted. I'm like very conflicted because I was like Shirley I shouldn't be happy when I'm happy this can't be right. But now I know 

He apparently did reach out to her fairly soon because she got there before I left and I went to see some more apartments.

See her I could see her standing outside my car so balls on the phone with Andrea I was like hey do you want to stay on the phone she's at my door and she's like sure so. So so I turned laundry down and out of my window down it's just like hey will you know like there's two other I was able to get but there's two other units you can look at really b**** there are?. So I'm like okay she's like yeah you can go look at it right now minutes is on the road so I turn my car off getting ready to get out s*** no no you can drive over there like it's 166 and then another unit that I could look at and I was like okay I'll go meet her over there thank you and I still have to get lucky cuz I'm like I am nice and you're not going to f****** take that away from me. 

Still I go over and me Andrea tickle if I'm like she came out fast and I was not expecting that she's like well yeah Chris probably sent her email and got her to move in and I was like oh. So after I drive over there and I see the people at the apartment I'm like hey do you want to stay on the phone while I go in there put you on speakerphone so I meet her put her on speaker phone headed to the apartment which is first floor but not really could downstairs and you're going to walk down to it until the unit was open they were standing in there was maintenance and they're like hey yes like here's a unit and she said we can look at this one like you can take a look around 

I'll take a look around other princesses some of them are the same some of them are a little bit different and I'm like no I'm not going to get a decision today so where's the other units I don't want to deal with and she's like well like this one I know let me do you want to call it yes I do want to call her so she does and just like yeah okay well I'm going to talk to my attorney and I'll be in touch with her. 

And she's like okay cuz I was like also like this God obvious evidence that it's flooded in here before it's just like no like it doesn't and I'm like looking at the photos of stealing windows and like there's no way that those are properly sealed off would you would have been fine if I'm on the second floor because the water goes down but this one has a yard and it's right there at the ground level and you have to walk down to the apartment I'm like that's going to flood for sure there's so much water that's gotten in there based on the paint job on the bottom of the floor that meets the carpet. Sound like nope I'm at work where's the other unit was not available yet okay well I'm going to talk to my attorney. And if you cannot tell I really enjoy saying that it's one of my favorites I have with it so long to say that and then forget to compliment me and tell me I can work with him that plus the state of Texas unemployment office commending me on the package together. So I walk out getting my car and me and Andrea are tickled and she's like yeah you need to move I looked up some apartments for you to look at you know okay she's like why are you there like I don't know I like it like I would like to stay here if I can cuz I can still break my lease between where they're acting with a time comes if I wanted to and she's like no I found you some places there within your budget you're going to be fine but you only look for somewhere else like okay she's like what did Chris said I was like he said like I did ask him and I was going to be like if I had a shot and he was like a shot at what. Sounds like am I being reasonable like is it am I making like it doesn't make you might do it and I can do I have a shot at any of this working out in my favor he was like yes and I was like okay okay. 

Like I know he has other stuff to do that actually pays his bills so I'm like that's fine be busy and reach out where you can I'm okay with that. I have gotten what I needed to be myself feel good and I feel like I can sleep easier tonight at least knowing an actual attorney I trust this person that's f****** crazy. This is my real life. 

I just have never been more thrilled. And Andrea is like yeah this is probably easy work for Chris like something he does like in his sleep he finally do so it's not a big deal to him like you should have it's okay to ask for help. Cuz I was also telling her I knew I could do that and I could reach out to you I really didn't want to do that cuz I was like this is my mistake I did this. She's like no I was there you're not living there 

so now I'm just going to wait on Chris to do what Chris does I did text him after I left the replacement apartment and I was like no can I get a refund so I'm going to see what he says and what happens 

And on the other note I almost cried the tears I did not have when I went back to work cuz Andrea was leaving as I was picking up my stuff to go. And. And she was like but yeah Chris was like I'm not available but the goose is and I was like what and that the goose he was like she's at Chris text me when I reached out to him and he said I'm not available but the duck is and I was like what. And she was like yeah it was like what