my ring finger

My.ring finger has been itching/twitching since this morning.

I was at my fran's apartment, sitting on her couch and it started hurting like it was being pinched.

We also watched a Netflix movie called Dare to Dream. It was really good and very reminiscent of my gym girl situation.

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