well, im not being ignored anymore

We shared 3 moments today:

(I'm also high so this range from poetic to sporadic. We'll see lol)

I didn't hear until after I changed, loved up the coach's dog and then sat down to read. 

First I heard her voice and my heart raced. I heard her laugh and it made me smile. 

Then I tried pushing her out of my head.

Then someone was leaving and tried speaking to her from across the gym. I'm assuming she couldn't hear them with the music and everything.

I tried blocking her out again. 

And then I heard her coming, saw her silhouette join her friend group in the open gym. I kept reading, trying to focus on the words.

Then my gym friend's dog came in. And I looked up for a second and smiled. And then she brought him closer and I caved and went in to love on him. I talked to her for a second and then sat down to read again. But then the dog kept trying to get me and him was so cute. 

So I closed the book and scooted over to love on him.

And around the beam she came. Fucking cute as ever. God.

She walked over and he immediately left me and went to her, as she bent over to love on him.

She looked at me, with fuck me eyes, and said hey. 

And I turned stupid and melted and said hi back. 

Then I embarrassed myself because my other gym friend had come back and the dog went to her and gym girl stayed there for a second, talking to someone.

I was trying to make conversation with my friends to ignore gym girl and I don't think they heard the same joke I made twice...

Fuck me, ohmygah.

Then I finally finished reading and went to go sit on the floor before class started.

And I sat by my gym friend as he was stretching and the coach's dog, who was on leash.

He immediately came to me to love. And then he settled for a second. Then he start sniffing my hand. My nails, my palm, everything. Then he settled and then he started to jump at me for love lol. He kept grabbing my leg, begging for me to come closer.

(I need to add that to my gratitude jar because that really made me so happy).

So I scooted over and got close enough for him to reach me. And he got really excited and started hopping on me and on my face and sniffing away, licking away.

And I ate it up lol. 

And then after some face and ear rubs, he settled down and laid out. 

And he was like that for a second. My friend turned around and said 'we're gonna have to start calling you the dog whisperer' and I laughed and asked 'why, has he been jumping around' And he basically said yes and he's been very busy. 

And then some girls came by and it didn't take long before he was up again. But they didn't give him attention quick enough because he was back in my face almost immediately. Licking, loving, rubbing, patting my legs lol.

And the guy laughed as I heard gym girl behind me.

She laughed and said something about how I maybe should have sat somewhere else.

And I smiled at that and turned around laughing and said 'what.' She was looking at me, but didn't say anything. So I went back to loving, as he rolled onto his back for more.

And then she stops behind me for a second as she was walking past and said in her doggie voice 'i want rubs, it's my birthday' or something like that lol.

And then I did my workout and the weirdly nice girl wasn't there. There is a younger coach that is sometimes really strange to me but I've been downplaying as her also just being really nice.

And then as I was leaving, and passing by the front desk, I said bye to the coach who had the dog, and saw gym girl bending over at the desk doing something. So I started looking for the dog to get his attention because he was also behind the desk.

He didn't find my eyes, but I felt when gym girl did. Because mine jumped straight to hers.

I had my mouth open on a curious smile and immediately shut it with an 'I've been caught but I wasn't staring at you' grin. 

And she didn't stand up. She just kept looking up and said bye. And I said bye and started leaving. And she said something else too but I was too embarrassed to say anything else.

So.

There's that.

~

I'm a sucker for her. Does that make me a fool?

Only time will tell-- again. But this time different, because she knows I like her now.