i visited my blocked list

It is a little after 6 am and I was went to my Blocked list on Instagram to see her profile picture.

Did I go to see if her girlfriend was in it with her? Yes.

Is she in it? No.

But it's a different picture. One of her full on just about and she's smiling at the camera.

And now my brain is going 'who took the picture? Was it her girlfriend? Where'd she take it? On another vacation with her girlfriend?'

I don't know how I ended up back here, with her running around my brain.

I mean, I do know. 

The gym friend asking me at random is I was gonna be there that Friday as if something special was happening and then gym girl ends up being in class. That's the same day she was the most 'normal' she's been with me, outside of her complimenting my hair which is still confusing to me. And her outsmarting me by repeatedly coming up behind me instead of when I can see her, kept me from avoiding her.

Then the gym party thing. As she was walking past me in my direction, I tried not looking her way and she spoke to me. Idk. She doesn't seem to be as put out by me as she was before but she also doesn't seem to care that I told her how I feel. I thought she'd be avoiding me or not making conversation with me after that as to not confuse me with her actions.

And then this Monday, everyone at the gym was really fucking nice. I mean, they always are, that's why I love them. But I mean, they were really nice. Speaking to me from across the room, high fives all around (especially by my favorite coach there). And her black guy friend, who has given me the stink eye a few times, came up to me as I was packing my things and told me I did a good job in class...

What is happening? Is my ass being kissed or are people just really feeling the holiday spirit?