this morning is meh

Not gonna lie, I feel a little defeated this morning.

I really, truly don't understand why she would do that.

That just adds more confusion where there shouldn't be any anymore.

If someone told me they liked me and because of that needed space from me and couldn't/wouldn't do xyz, I'd like to think I'd respect that. I'd like to think I would be mindful when choosing my words in our future interactions.

I wouldn't tell them I liked their fucking hair.

I'm trying to let go. Why won't she? What's she getting at?

Something is up. Something is off.

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I'm finally crying now. It only lasted for a second.

Was any of that real? Did we share anything real? Or has the been some game this entire now and now she feels like she's won?

I don't understand.

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