doing my hair

I've been doing my hair since about 7am this morning.

I stopped and went to grab breakfast. Took a little breaky-break and then I got back to it.

I've been feeling panic in my body off and on this morning.

Slight panic in the car happens regularly. But panic while doing my hair is rare. I actually don't remember ever feeling panic when putting my hair back up.

Sorrow? Regret? Anger? Frustration? Yes. Because doing my hair reminds of just how much I have actually been pulling my hair. 

And honestly, I don't have any smooth ball spots anymore. The one in the middle of my head is still like the size of my fist, but there's long hair here and there and there's fuzzy short hair that has grown in. 

So I'm not happy about it but I am proud because it's not as bad as I thought it would be.

But I keep getting this wave of panic and I don't know why.

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