sharing is shitty sometimes
As much as I enjoy sharing parts of my journey with people close to me, I also don't sometimes. I have my work friend a rundown of gym yesterday sans me crying because I wanted to get her initial reaction. And she basically said 'yeah, this would be awkward. But it happens to everyone and she's older than you so she understands" I don't like that. That makes me sound like a child and I am not a child. And it makes me feel silly, as if I conjured all this up and it's just me who's been in my feelings and gotten too attached on accident. As if I wasn't led on in the slightest. And then my best friend got the whole of everything and I only shared it to lean into my vulnerability and she didn't know how to really help me. She earnestly tried but it also felt like I was being treated like a baby. "You know regret is normal. And you shouldn't feel bad." Yadda yadda. And when I told her I was sad because the gym Christmas party is coming up a...