vivid dreams

I have had two very vivid dreams since I did my first sound bath last week.

(Amazing experience, by the way. 10/10 and really want to do it again.)

The first night, I dreamed the sky legit opened up. Like I looked up and saw the sky open up. The clouds parted into this like circle and then beams and like wind and maybe rain fell out of the sky. And the the reverse started to happen and I ran. It wasnt violent but it was scary.

And then I thought I was in my granddaddy's house but it was remodeled and people were there. My youngest sister and my fucking dad. I was telling God 'uh uh. Absolutely not, I don't want this. I don't like this. No. Stop it, it's scary.'

And then I opened the door with my sister and we both screamed bloody murder. It looked like a cloud fell out of the sky and landed right at the door. And then my dad came and said it was just trash and moved it out of the way.

I was legit scared to go outside the next day. But I talked to the girl at work and we think it has to do with me doing things that scare me.

Last night I had a dream my dog was feral but like also white and tiny. She was growling and snipping at everyone. She didn't scare me though. So I grabbed her up in the garage and took her to the bathroom. No idea who's house I was in in this dream. Looked like this house, but not really.

I took her to the bathroom and was washing her up in the sink I guess. And then my mom came in to check on me and asked me if I needed help with anything. I was getting ready to say now when my dog growled and then vomited everywhere. Just dog food and water spewing out so badly I like held her upper and lower torso in each hand and kind of held her over the sink to pour it out of her.

Which reminds me of the dream I had where I was crying and holding my dead dog. And my dad came and set it on fire in my lap. Very jarring dream. I don't think I ever wrote about it because I talked to her about it once. I'd talked to like 2 other people close to me about it but ahe immediately put together why I would have a dream like that and what it probably meant.

Fuck.