note to self

Remember these things when you start reaching & romanticizing:

- She has your number. She can reach out to you whenever she likes

- You don't have to go on her Instagram page to see if she's single. Assume she's dating because last you heard from her mouth, she has a girlfriend.

- Her Instagram will not tell you she likes you. She will need to do that if that's the case.

- If she hasn't told you she's romantically interested in you, don't look for signs and wonders. Look and listen to her mouth to make the words. 

- Breathe. You want love. You want to be loved by her and that's ok. Longing is natural. Crushes are natural.

- Don't pressure yourself to "get back to normal". You're grieving and healing. Give yourself time.

- The space you wanted is the space you have. You don't know the why or how but what you do know is somehow it's working out this way. 

- You don't know what you don't know. Don't go looking. Anything that is for you will come to you. 

- New Rule: If she's not watching your Stories, you're not watching hers.

- This could be a beautiful story if any of this pans out. But remember it could also be a beautiful experience to remember down the line.