very likely bisexual

I asked for another sign today. I think it's clear to say I got it.

The first one came yesterday when my therapist cancelled my appointment for Monday.

So even though I'd planned on not being at the gym and told that girl I would not be at the gym, I was, in fact, at the gym.

At first, I thought she wasn't there. So I was able to relax and kind of settle in and breath easy. I was sitting down, zoning in, and then I heard her voice.

My entire being lit up. I got nervous, felt sweaty, and I know she knew it was me sitting in there.

Not too long after, she decided to join class a little late. She has not been in a class with me, working out, in like a month.

Not only did she join class, she worked out in my line of sight. There was one person in front of me and then some middle of the floor equipment, and then her-- facing my direction and me facing her. She did the same thing last time she was in class with me. She chose a spot where we were facing one another.

Well, I was fucking flustered. I was already nervous about seeing her since we'd shared so much during our last talk. So I was trying to just focus on my workout-- not her. So I paid close attention to my breathing and my warm up as a healthy distraction. And it worked really well for a hot minute.

But it didn't last long.

The class gathered to go over some things, and instead of walking directly to the section from her position, she strategically walked towards me in my route to the section. So, of course, I can't avoid her if she's literally right in front of me. So I nervously smiled and spoke. She fist bumped me (which now that I know what her love language is, makes me think she's just touching me to touch me instead of just being nice because I speak to alot of people without fist bumping them and same with her...I think).

Anyways, she fist bumped me and spoke back. And we nervously made a little conversation before we parted ways. She is fucking hot, my God.

Another anyways, then I went and started my workout. I spoke to one of the assistants there that I like. She said they missed me, which made me think 'is that a real thing or a nice thing or do yall also feel this weird tension between the two of us'

I swear I could feel the other girl watching our interaction. I feel like she's always watching me when I'm with other people. Can't lie, I also find myself doing it and have to find a distraction to make myself stop.

I really feel like this girl wants the me I give to other people at the gym. Laughing, freely chitchatting, etc. But I need her to realize she has is honestly the one with the upper hand. She actually knows me; she knows my ugly. She's basically seen me naked, metaphorically speaking.

Third anyways, she disappeared during class. I only know because I was looking for her (even though I swore I wouldn't). So when I realized what I was doing, I found another distraction. 'Focus on my breathing and my body movements during this exercise.' But then she caught my eye.

And when I say 'she', I do mean the fact that her shirt was gone and she was just in a workout bra and shorts. And she was fucking hot. I could feel myself salivating and just drawn to her. I wanted to touch her. I wanted her to touch me. I wanted her. Badly. I'm turned on now just thinking about it.

My eyes traveled her entire body and I had to distract myself again in order to not be fucking obvious.

And while I was stretching with the class after our workout, she came by and fist bumped me again (which is 100% normal). But usually she has a shirt on. Or she'd have put it back on. This time it was off still.

And seeing as how I JUST told her what my love language was, it almost seems like this was her giving me a version of quality time....almost kinda.

Another episode of 'I don't know what the hell is happening but I do know I want her'

I'm going to keep reminding myself of my mantra and keep finding healthy distractions.

But also, God do I want her to [consensually] control me in bed. Hell, I'd be horny over a little [consensually] covert control in public.

And so the plot continues to thicken.

QUICK UPDATE:

She worked out with another class today with no shirt on.

So I was just blatantly checking her out for almost no good reason. She wasn't putting on a show; she was just hot.

I only know this because she reposted someone else's video of her. 

So this lessons my worry a bit.

AND she was basically in the same spot. So it could all be a coincidence.