what living looks like

 (This will make more sense once I finish up with my other post, but for now, I have to get this out.) My uncle is one more thing away from me cussing him the fuck out. Because I am working on self, I am leaning on my religion in this moment. My prayer right now is that our house becomes a house of mirrors for him. The entire time he's been staying with us, all of three fucking months, he has: ignored all advice but continuously ask for help taken full advantage of my family lied to cover up lies to cover up lies sneaking around in our stuff pretended to know all of everything about the world been manipulative been disrespectful completely disregarded our rules to how we cohabitate I'm honestly sick of his shit and I don't know how I've managed to hold my tongue for so long. Actually, it's call internalizing, but you get my point. I pray our house becomes a house of mirrors for him. I want him to be so confused, he can't see straight. I want him to walk with his...

 Turns out, I have scalp psoriasis. Not saying once I get it under control, the pulling will stop BUT it does give me some comfort to know alot of what I was feeling when I'd start to pull my hair wasn't just in my head. Before I start pulling, I would literally feel my scalp being itchy and irritated and this entire time I was thinking "it's just my brain tricking me into picking and pulling at my hair." Then I'd beat myself up over and over again, stress out even more, and start pulling with no end in sight. I've also started medication for my scalp along with this NAC supplement that the doctor suggested we try out to see if it helps. People have reviewed and done a few studies on NAC having this side affect of helping people like me curb those habits. And strangely, it actually has. I am not telling anyone what they should and shouldn't put into their bodies because I'm not a doctor (duh) but also, NAC's intended use is not for hair pulling...