fish out of water

 I had my first crazy dream in a while (that I've written down).

Today I took a nap and had a 2 of dreams in one swoop.

DREAM 1

My oldest sister and the one right under me came to our house. Our house in my dream didn't feel like our house now, but also felt similar. (I know.) But any who, my two sisters came over and the oldest brought her fish that didn't live in of water. That's right. 

It looked just like a crucian carp fish. Made my skin crawl. It like, had a bed and just flopped around. And flopping is how it got around the house. Creepy as hell.

Before I left to run an errand and told the sister under me to find the fish (cause it had been flopping around everywhere) and put it away so it doesn't get lost.

We get back-- fish is no where to be found. So by the time I get to my room and settle in, it's still bothering me that I can't find this fish. The last thing I want is to lose a fish and it die somewhere and stink up the house. A part of me knows my sister probably half looked, so I had this feeling to check under my bed and VOILA! Fucking dead fish. It had flopped in between some cases under my bed. So now that I think about it, maybe she did look and just didn't see it. I don't know.

DREAM 2

I was in this relay type situation. I feel like I may have rode a bike, I definitely ran part of the way, and then there was a part involving water. I don't remember the exact of this dream but I do remember I went into the water some way and my eyes were open. When I started to swim up to get air, I ran into an issue. I don't remember if something was blocking my way or not.

But in that moment of knowing I couldn't hold my breath any longer, instead of flopping and fighting I just steadied myself and took time to think for a quick second. That's when I realized I needed to wake up. I was holding my breath and needed to wake up because I didn't have to drown or almost die. It was a dream and I just woke myself up.

CONCLUSION

At first I just looked up the fish dream part, but now looking at this explanation again (shout out www.cafeausoul.com), I see how these two do coincide and it matches with what I'm currently going through since going to therapy:

"'A fish out of water' is a symbol of the uncertainty you may feel in integrating your authentic nature with what is expected of you. Seeing fish in the air and out of water also symbolizes the free movement and release of what had previously been kept under the surface, as in an epiphany"

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