what living looks like

 So. I'm more sure than I was before about my new boss. Today, I moved offices. We will definitely be seeing more of each other. He's two doors down from me. While I was still in my old office, he walked by and did a little snap at my door. He also helped me with some paper issues I was having. And he said that means we're cool. (I will now acknowledge that I sound like a second grader.) He also said, it's a good thing he came to help me or he would have just watched me struggle while he ate lunch. Then he came and peacocked around my office. Commenting on my door he'll be putting up, how he wasn't far away. He stood around and watched on while us girls giggled. And, on my way out for the day, he was standing at the door. And I giggled with the girl up front, said bye, and wished her a good weekend. And then I maneuvered around him. He said bye and told me not to party too hard. That's it. That's the evidence. Also a bit more eye contact today too. And a...

 Welp. I'm back like I never left. I've gathered some sense of my new normal and reeled in some sense of sanity. Also, I got a freaking job. And where have I found myself yet again: I think my boss like-likes me. I've had this feeling 3 times. One of those 3 times, I was right. It was monumental and also very damaging. I should note that that 1/3 was not my boss. It was worse. But in order to reel in my anxiety, I'm giving myself my moment. My moment to say what I think, into the void. Because apparently people read this, but they don't comment. Not mad at all. I just like the idea of being not-judged to my face. If that makes sense. I guess what I mean is I want to be able to sit in this feeling without being shoved into an area of doubt, right out the gate. I want to be heard (sort of) without waiting to hear what someone has to say about it. And if I'm right or wrong, it'll be between me and the internets. But, really, who didn't see this coming? I...