dreams 💭

I've been having vivid dreams again. But when I wake up, I guess I'm trying so hard to get back there, I end up forgetting the dream. But I have bits and pieces of the last one.

I had a dream I was at some church or retreat event with my boyfriend. A guy cam up to us and gave us these almost Twitter-shaped bird pins. We both put ours away. Then I think I may have asked for another? We get the other and open it. I grab the backing and my boyfriend grabs the pin. I reaches to put it over my boob and I laugh and say "no, that's too low." Then I put the backing against the inside of my shirt to show him where to place the pin. It was a kind of intense, but really cute moment.

Then, for some reason, this guy starts giving him shit. I don't know why and I don't remember what was said. But I remember walking up to my car I'm guessing. (I think it was like a blue, weirdly shaped car. Something I don't think I would drive. At all. Maybe we were borrowing it.) He was at the passenger door and I walked up to him and handed him the keys. But I kept telling him if he was too pissed to drive then don't. Because I don't want to be put in danger. I said I was willing to let him drive, but he had to promise me he was ok. He was ok to drive. He wasn't too upset to drive us. I don't know why, but I kept asking him to tell me he was ok. He obliged, and I handed over the keys. He opened the door and let me into my seat. Then he went around and got in. I have realized I don't like people to drive me in my own car. It's weird and crazy and scary. It's a literal act of me giving up control of something I basically control everyday. I'm literally taking a second seat on purpose. In my own car. So this was a big deal and I think he knew.

But that's all I remember.