what i want doesn't really matter

I have come to the dramatic conclusion of the above statement. What I want doesn't matter. After my not-so-much discussion with my boss of how and when we tell customers about me leaving, nothing has gone my way. I don't ask for alot, but I did ask for this. And in return, they are continuing to do what they want regardless of how that makes me feel. They know where I stand on this topic, and it has not phased them. How do I know this? Because I have started a running list of them telling people "for me." 

I don't normally do things like this because it feels like crazy-girlfriend behavior. But I'm tired of getting worked up for good reason, and then trying to make excuses for other people in order to make me feel better. Or rationalize why they'd want to do that in order to un-demonize them. I'm tired of doing that. I'm tired of overworking myself and overthinking for the benefit of other people. It just feels like a way I keep myself complacent. In order to protect them from me being pissed, and me from being hurt, I try and downplay what's happening. Welp, fuck that shit. I've heard my boss say TWICE that I don't want to tell people I'm leaving in the same sentence that she tells people I'm leaving. In front of me. So, again I shall say, fuck that shit. Here's the list.

Saberg Purek

Kasem Pywellom

Ailleen Jahnt

Miche Phrunz