my sister is problematic

Tonight I think I realized my sister has a legit problem. I created a draft to talk about this later, but something happened tonight  that really makes me feel sick. I'm thinking alot of thoughts so I'm gonna try to make this make sense.

It's coming up on the anniversary of our Big Blowup so the timing couldn't been better. I really, really wanted to do this later cause I don't want to go back there. *deep breath* I'm gonna focus on recent events. So the other day, we stopped at McDonald's when we made it back into town. We went to visit some family. Well, my mom calls my sister to talk to her cause she likes to talk on the phone while she drives. I immediately put headphones in cause I ain't got time. Well from the time we passed by the mall in til we made it to McDonald's everything was meh. She was talking all ridiculous and over-the-top, then it switched. She just starts picking a fight with her husband. And Lord help him, she's a fucking dick. She told him she wasn't being funny but it's 10 at night and is he really about to cook?  She just starts yelling, calling him a duck that should be somewhere in water, "sorry mom. I'm gonna have to call you back cause apparently I'm being vindictive", blah blah blah, "IIIII'M going to church in the morning", saying she's in hell, blah blah blah.

She just flipped which I didn't-- it didn't take me by surprise. My mom's reaction took me by surprise. She just kind of not snickered, but seemed amused. When she hung up, she took my sister's side. She basically said my sister's husband was not mature, always on the game, blah blah blah. My sister's actions are not justifiable. If she's that unhappy to any fight that have escalates to her being demeaning, yelling at the top of her lungs, calling him names, being over dramatic FUCKING LEAVE HIM. If your that unhappy, what the fuck are y'all together for??? This explains why she has been reaching out to me trying to play nice. Well, I've got news. She can stay whatever kind of cozy her ass pretended to be with him last year. I'm not here for the b.s. I ain't got time. She got what she wanted. So why is it when the shit that has always been on the ceiling finally hits the fan, it's me she comes running to. Uh uhn. Imma need her to let this play out, and be the grown ass woman she likes to put in everyone's face.

I don't understand my mom though. My sister picked a fight with me and when I blew up it was a problem. She picks a fight with her husband, who didn't blow up (at least while he was in the background of the phone call) it's his fault. Last year, I knew my mom didn't appreciate it, but it hit me last night. Does she think that was my fault? And why does she keep making excuses for my sister being a bitch? My sister has always been on the attack. Growing up she would antagonize my dad, she antagonized me, people in high school and in the military. She even got an official reprimanding and meeting about hitting someone with a bottle. Then her time in the service ended, she found stuff to complain about with people she worked with. People didn't like her, they talked about her. So she switched jobs. And guess what, same thing. Last night I realized, she got issues. Not like regular, we all have problems we're dealing with things. Something is not right if the same things just keep happening and happening. 

Of course, holidays are coming up which means she's gonna be trying to come home to visit. I ain't got time. She's always faking. I just -- don't want to deal with her. I don't want to deal with them. I really want an out. Maybe I can go away for the holidays, somewhere down South. Or a state over, I don't know. But I can't just hang around here with her on her bullshit. It's exhausting and that stress triggers my trichotillomania. With that, I'm done talking about it. I really should've been recapping my weekend down South, but she's taking over. Again. Just freaking great.